This Pain!!

This pain inside,
I try to hide,
Swallowing the tears,
From those treacherous years,
It seems, from you, there’s no regret,
I cant forgive, I cant forget.

Memories, burning like the coals,
Heartache, full of scattered holes,
As time is flowing still,
Your words, they do not heal,
My tattered, nerves and pain,
My energy you still drain,
Pulling me down to destruction,
Causing my life’s disruption.
Difficulties they abound,
This mountain that we’ve found,
A making, growing hill,
As my life you try to kill,
As you push me further away,
And try to make me play!
So you can use this, excuse,
Make me, look bad, use this abuse!
Poisoning my name,
With your deadly game,
Lying , cheating pain,
Fickle, emotions plain,
The tricks, you play, I am no fool,
This marriage, of ours, you broke every rule.
I cannot forgive, I cant forget.

Since time is now healing, I do not regret.
Now learning my lessons, I am moving ahead,
Its time to change, my life instead,
Without you there to make things bad,
Without you around to make me sad,
My crying pain, I can then let go,
Release the heartache, and let it flow.  ~Seaopal